"As If God Remained Silent"
Sometimes God will allow us to go through a season that is very important to really establish our faith on solid relationship with Him. This is one of the toughest seasons in the christian life. I can assure you that everyone who is called to minister or anyone who desires to grow even more will pass through the season of waiting. This is the time where God teaches us to wait, it feels as if he remained silent. We pray and nothing happens. We cry out and it seems like He is not listening. This season brings patience and strengthens our faith through relationship. You find out through this season that Jesus alone is enough.
I can recall many times where God allowed me to go through seasons of waiting. It felt like I prayed and nothing happened. I felt like God didn't want to answer my prayers because there was something wrong with me, but after these seasons past I learned God was trying to teach me something about myself. I noticed after these seasons of waiting and in the silence the anointing, patience, and faith increased in my life. There were things that He needed to take away from me and things He needed to teach me. After these needed seasons of waiting I received supernatural manifestations and the answers to all my prayers. I realized my faith had grown and my relationship with Him had been established not on what I was receiving, but on Him alone. During these seasons all I could do was rest on the promises He had given me, wait on them, and just rest in His arms.
I remember during my prayer times I would just tell Him, "Lord as long as you don't leave me and as long as I have you let it be enough." In that moment He did become enough, He was more than enough. I received peace even in my desert, I received strength even in the darkest moments. There is a season of waiting, but there is also a time after this season where the glory of God manifests in wonderful supernatural ways. The book of Psalms teaches us about David, a man who was put to wait upon God many times. A man who in these seasons would beg God to free him from his enemies and hide him under His wings. A man who waited and God showed up on his behalf with glorious manifestations.
"I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him. Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods" (Psalm 40:1-4)
In this verse we can observe how David felt, he was sinking in this pit. His faith was growing weary, but yet he says "I waited patiently." He did not look upon any other god, he waited on the only God. Even if the relief did not come as fast as he expected, he waited and in his faithfulness God blessed him.
I want to encourage you to be patient during this season of waiting. All you have to do is continue to wait patiently. I promise you that God is listening to all of your prayers and watching every tear that falls. He knows what you need, but sometimes these seasons of waiting are necessary for us to grow in our faith. Sometimes they are necessary for us to establish a solid foundation based on relationship, based on gratitude in what He has already done at the cross, and and based on what we do have already. Like David, I learned to wait in Him and He set my feet on a rock and put a new song in my mouth. It was a song of testimony. A song of gratitude, a song of the glory that came because I waited. In every season of waiting, He is enough. And after every season of waiting, His glory manifests. "Blessed are those who trust in the Lord..."